My day started difficult and my work day ended on a particularly low note but thankfully I'm home where I want to be and with the ones that need me.
Caden called to me from his room before I even rolled out of bed....not a good sign. He ended up on the couch surrounded by his 'guys' and asked me to snuggle him and play (and while he always loves snuggles, this has been a increasingly frequent request). I told him I wished we could but we need to get ready for school. And my heart broke a little when his lip curled under and he told me all he wanted was to be home with me.
I have spent the majority of this year working through very challenging behaviors at work (can't go into detail but I have a book worth of stories). I go to work most days with a smile on my face and find humor where i can because without it, I wouldn't make it.
So knowing what my day had in store, pushing my 4 year old off to school on a day (week) when he is clearly showing me how much he needs me and to be at home and then get to work and feel like some people don't respect me or value what I do or appreciate any of what I do makes it really rough to soldier on. (geez, that was a bit of a run on sentence but I don't really care)
After the down hill slide that was today it ended with multiple texts that my 2 year old doesn't feel good and I feel my heart jump a little like it does every time I think he really might be sick and it will lead to a seizure...it never has for almost a year but the fear lingers. So I am wanting nothing more than to go and swoop up my boys and never go back to work. They need me and right now, I want nothing more than to be there for them.
I have spent the majority of this year working through very challenging behaviors at work (can't go into detail but I have a book worth of stories). I go to work most days with a smile on my face and find humor where i can because without it, I wouldn't make it.
So knowing what my day had in store, pushing my 4 year old off to school on a day (week) when he is clearly showing me how much he needs me and to be at home and then get to work and feel like some people don't respect me or value what I do or appreciate any of what I do makes it really rough to soldier on. (geez, that was a bit of a run on sentence but I don't really care)
After the down hill slide that was today it ended with multiple texts that my 2 year old doesn't feel good and I feel my heart jump a little like it does every time I think he really might be sick and it will lead to a seizure...it never has for almost a year but the fear lingers. So I am wanting nothing more than to go and swoop up my boys and never go back to work. They need me and right now, I want nothing more than to be there for them.
